Little Miss Temper

I remember when Maddi (my first encounter of aunt-hood) was a little person she was so perfect (she still really is).  But she turned 3 and became a not so perfect little person.  We really believed that we had hit the luck button with this chick because she did NOT go through the terrible two's.  We spoke too soon....I remember thinking I was gonna have to sell her if her parents left her alone with me once she turned 3.  She would melt down over anything and everything!  WEELLLLLLL, 5 years later (she is now 8) she has a wonderful little cousin, (my gem) Sloane.

Sloane is on the brink of three.  Three, how does that happen so fast?  Two was pretty easy with this girl. She was always pretty easy going....especially as a baby.  Now? Not.So.Much.

She melts down at the drop of a hat.  Anything and everything sets this child off.

If her socks are on crooked, you would think that I put baby spiders in them before I put them on.

She wants a fruit snack and is told to hang on a second, you would think I told her that Santa is never visiting again.

You want to help her wash the shampoo out of her hair during bath time.  How dare you, it is like splashing poisonous water all over her body.

She wants to do a puzzle but the first piece doesn't fit the WRONG piece, call in the troops she is losing her mind.

I have actually videoed her melting down.  She loves to watch it.  Thinks it's pretty awesome.  Sloane usually laughs a little, then says, "I siwwwwy." Yes dear, you are silly.

Last night her, Aiden and I were playing a game.  We were each taking turns rolling the race cars into a bucket (sounds enthralling right?!?).  When it wasn't my turn Sloane would rub my face and tell me it's not my turn, but it's ok.  She would say, "I love you mommy, but it not your turn." She would say this the entire time until it was my turn.  She melted me.  She finds ways to remind me each day why I love her so.

During this game Aiden also showed his mature 5 year old side.  Sloane melted down (what? Sloane? no way!) about wanting it to be HER turn and wanting to use Aiden's car.... my little Aiden let her go AND AND AND AND AND gave her HIS car to use.  He was desperate for her to play without melting down.  He is a great kid.  He will be a great kid.

I am a lucky mom.  I get the joy of the meltdowns but I also get the joy of all the happy moments. I love getting to know more and more about my kids each day.  One of the great parts of being a mom. 

I Was Here

This video is a little dramatic and beyonce's butt is looks HUGE but this song is incredible!

 I Was Here, by Beyonce

This song represents what most people I have surrounded myself by feel. We want to feel like we have done something, left our mark, given our all, and done our best.  I can honestly say that everyone around me has done what is in this song for me. My life is better because of you. You are all in my life for a reason, and I love that.

My mom, her mark will always be left with me.  I have learned and continue to learn from that woman each day.
My dad, where would I be without that man?  He is who I want to be.  He has taught me more than he will ever understand.  
My brother, he is so far away yet so close to my heart.  I know he is a call away for me to complain, tell a funny story, or just chat.  I love that I have him.  His kids, his wife...they complete my family.  They are and will always be my people, just like Aiden and Sloane.
Aiden and Sloane, lordy how they have left a huge mark on my life.  They are the true proof that I have made a difference in someones life.  They are me.  They are my world.  They are more than I ever thought I could be.
Kyle, he is my soulmate.  He allows me to live and to love.  To be a the person I always wanted to be.  To feel whole and happy.  To feel safe and right.  To make me feel alive and be a better person each day.  I hope that everyone has a chance to feel the love that this man gives me.
Lucy, she makes me a better mom.  I see the things she does and that makes me want to do more and be more for my people. I love that I have her.  I love the way she keeps our family close to her heart.
Bebe and Papa, they taught me peace.  They also shared their love with me.  Bebe is there, loves me, loves my kids just like her own.  I live and I love the way she has lived and loved.
My friends, oh my friends.  I have a lot of them (like 6 or 7 because I am awesome).  I love all of them, so very dearly.  I learn from them.  WE have left our mark on lots of places, things, people.  They are more than I ever imagined.  They bring me happiness and laughter each and every second.  I am very lucky.
Danielle and Micki, we are more than any other family is.  We are so abnormal and I love that we have what we have.  I wrote a blog post on my previous blog about how rare it is to have a family like ours....I still believe that.  I will always take our abnormal ways over other peoples traditional way. 
Kippi and Donna, they are like having extra moms. Most aunts aren't like my aunts.  I strive to be like them so Maddi and Colton have what I have.  I want those two kids to know that I was here, and I have done for them just like my aunts did for me.
Leslie (happy birthday sister), I will tell you that when you listen to this song you will think of her.  You will see her.  You will hear her singing this.  I am pretty certain that she in some form or fashion wrote this song for us to hear.  This epitomizes her, who she was, who she will always be in our hearts.  Leslie changed our lives in many ways, when she was here and when she left us.  She made us live before she died and continues to make us live.  I miss her.  I wonder what my life would have been like had we had her here all these years.  Listen to this song, think of her.  Then think of yourself and ask does this song fit you?
Here are the lyrics to the song if you don't watch the video.  Again I highly recommend watching it, if not just to see her giant hiney.....

I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time Know there was something that, meant something that I left behind When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets Leave something to remember, so they won't forget
I was here I lived, I loved I was here I did, I've done, everything that I wanted And it was more than I thought it would be I will leave my mark so everyone will know I was here
I want to say I lived each day, until I die And know that I meant something in, somebody's life The hearts I have touched, will be the proof that I leave That I made a difference, and this world will see
I was here I lived, I loved I was here I did, I've done, everything that I wanted And it was more than I thought it would be I will leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here I lived, I loved I was here I did, I've done, everything that I wanted And it was more than I thought it would be I will leave my mark so everyone will know I was here
I just want them to know That I gave my all, did my best Brought someone to happiness Left this world a little better just because
I was here
I was here I lived, I loved I was here I did, I've done, everything that I wanted And it was more than I thought it would be I wanna leave my mark so everyone will know I was here.