It is all so new. I
have been divorced for almost 2 years now, but each stage is still so new. There are things that I will never get used
to, I don’t care what they say. They
might get easier as my kids get older, but I will never get used to them. Even Sundays, which I have written about
before, don’t seem to get easier. I am
lucky, I see my kids a lot more than most divorced parents do, but I still miss
them deeply. I miss tucking them in, I
miss hugging them, kissing them, listening to them play, watching them eat, I
miss everything about them when they are away.
It hasn’t gotten easier, only harder.
I wonder why. I wonder if that is normal. I wonder if
that will change.
My kids will have a step mom in a year, which is new. She is extremely involved. I am not used to that. I don’t know how to handle it. But, in time I think I will learn.
Aiden isn’t getting younger, he is growing, way too
fast. He has an attitude and doesn’t
think the clothes I pick out to wear are cool (which is funny because the
clothes he picks are pretty lame-o). He is a boy, all boy. He loves me, a lot. He loves on me all the time, and I hope that
NEVER changes….but I know it will. He is an emotional kid, very emotional. I think the divorce has most definitely affected
him in many ways. I worry about him, a
lot.
Sloane is getting big too.
She is such a character. She
cracks us up on a daily basis. I
especially love her meltdowns, those are the best. I do have to say that she is smart, very
smart. She picks up on anything and
everything that is said. Sloane is has
made my life better ten-fold. But each day is something new with her, each day
brings a new battle.
I love how new things are with my life, but at the same time
I hate it. I wish that I wasn’t caught
off guard by so many things in my life, but here I am. I will embrace each day and run with it. I will live each day and enjoy it, because
who knows when it could be gone.
