A vacation is definitely a well needed break from your regular day to day. It gives you a chance to walk slower and take time for yourself. Or read a book you've wanted to read or maybe even take a nap.
Kyle and I went on vacation together (the first one with just the two of us) to Pensacola Beach, Florida. Let me start with this....the weather was amazing!! Here is a glimpse of what our days looked liked....
we woke up
ate breakfast at the Native Cafe
went back to the hotel (I sat on my rear end eating candy while Kyle ran)
went to the beach around 11 each morning and stayed there until 4 each day
took a bike ride around the island and explored the real estate (where we found tons of homes we will retire to--after we hit the lottery)
showered
went to dinner
walked around
went to bed
I tell you our daily schedule to tell you the next thing. We missed our kids. Every time we saw kids playing on the beach I would get a little punch in the gut thinking Aiden and Sloane would love this or Kailyn and Bailey would love to people watch with us. We wanted for them to be a part of our vacation. Then we really looked at the things we did and realized they never would have liked this vacation. They would have loved the beach, but not for 5 straight hours. They would have loved the bike rides, but not to look at the giant houses that they will never get to live in. They would have loved going out to eat but they don't have the patience we do.
I always feel guilty when I am away from my kids, so does Kyle. We are normal people and we miss our kids when they are away from us....and as I have blogged about before, we are away from our kids a lot more than a "normal" mom and dad. But, just like all people, we too need a break from our regular day to day. We need a chance to walk a little slower and take time for ourselves. We needed an opportunity to sit and have an uninterrupted amount of time to focus on ourselves and each other.
I blame my guilt on my divorce and always go back to 'my poor kids didn't choose this life'....what I forget to point out is that my kids have so many people that love them. People that genuinely and truly love them. They have Kyle who would drop anything for Bailey, Kailyn, Aiden, or Sloane. Then there's Mandy who would do anything to make sure that Aiden and Sloane are safe and healthy. Not to mention their own mom and dad who worship the ground they walk on. I have to constantly remind myself how lucky they are.
So while I choose to take a vacation for me, nobody suffers. I miss those kids whenever I am away from them, but they too benefit from my personal vacation.
We are better people for taking time to do this for ourselves. I know that I will be a better mom for taking this time for myself. I will be more than excited to see my two little people and wrap my arms around them and give them the biggest hug. I am ready to play football and do puzzles and play dress up and dinosaurs. I am refreshed (and tan). I am ready to go back to being mom again. Everyone needs a break. Everyone deserves time for themselves.
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